Second Chance

The past couple months have been some of the most eye-opening for me.  I’ve taken a moment to look back at the person I was before I joined the Air Force…  I see how ambitious I was.  I see the positivity that I once possessed.  Now I look at myself and see nothing but a fucking shadow of what I once was.  I’m arrogant, stubborn, and pissed off because I feel like I’m due for something that I probably don’t deserve yet.

I can’t help but see myself in the future, pissed off at who I am now because of how stupid I’ve been acting.  Opportunities have been shoved into my face and I’ve refused to take even one of them.  Now I’m asking myself, “What happened to you?”

To be honest, I don’t know.  I really don’t.  But now I can see that I’m not who I was once.  I’m not the person that once aimed at the furthest and highest target simply because there was a small chance of hitting it.  I’ve let the people and environment around me turn me into something I would fucking despise if I ever met.  This isn’t me.  It really fucking isn’t.

If someone’s doing something wrong, you don’t do it wrong with them. You show them wassup and correct their dumbass, ESPECIALLY in the military.

I’ve been told over and over that I’m leadership material and I’ve refused to take any opportunities to become one, because I’ve been made bitter by the ones currently in charge.  No more.  In fact, FUCK that.  I have potential, I KNOW this.  Now, I’m gonna use it.

I got sent to this joke of a base for a reason.  It wasn’t so I could let these people turn me into something I’m not.  It’s so I could turn these people into what they should be, and uphold them to the highest possible standards that a fine military should have.

I was born and made to lead.  It’s time to fucking start.

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy." - Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.

08.01.12

See You Later

Those who are close to me, friends, old and new, family that has always been there for me… I love all of you. You will all be on my mind in the next 8.5 weeks, and I can’t wait to come back. Thank you for all the love you’ve all shown me in the past few months. It truly meant a lot. Wish me luck… I won’t say goodbye, but i will say… I’ll see all of you later. =)

03.07.11